Today has been so weird for me. Over the weekend I wasnt feeling well and finally yesterday I called and cancelled my surgery. Ive been so torn since then. I didnt even get a call back from the doc but the nurse did call me 2 times today. I missed her calls then she was already gone for the day.
Im torn because I wonder if the surgery is right for me. I feel like I couldnt even handle the pre-op diet so for me I cheated. Not really cheated but I did. My dreams of a 15-20 lb weightloss during pre-op have come and gone. My doc doesnt have another appointment until September I found out last week during a conversation with the insurance coordinator.
I dont know what to do. I worry about have the band in my body for SO many years I hopefully have left in my life (could be 50!) - if I lose weight, if not, who knows?
Today was supposed to be the first day to the rest of my life...NOT!!! :(