Monday, June 29, 2009

Non-official befores... here is some unofficial before pics to kind of show my journey through the years with my weight. I'm one of the most consistent people my doc said he has ever seen with my weight. I gain and lose but just a little staying in the same range! Nothing to be proud about obviously :(




June 2008

July 2008

July 2008

August 2008 - right before my diet/gym everyday!!!

October 2008 - 6 weeks later - OMG!!! Why did I stop?

October 2008

October 2008

October 2008

November 2008

Then I started gaining the weight I lost back from here...ending up back up to 240!!! What the hell!!! Hate seeing these in a way but it lets me know I need help so I can finally shed this weight!!!

How I came to need the lapband...

Well Wednesday is the long pre-op testing day. I'm so nervous at times about the surgery and other times I don't think twice about it! Its probably how everyone feels before I'm sure.

It really has me thinking about why I am in this position in the first place. I totally eat way too much - we all know that :)

Here is the bigger deal: I am trying on a daily basis to figure out emotionally and mentally why I gained/maintained this weight. Unlike many other people I have read about I haven't been under 200 lbs since high school! I was able to lose and make a difference but then never followed through for some reason.

I know that being overweight is something deep inside of each fat person. I think over the past few years I've discovered my reason so being fat just makes it easier. I've been so incredibly lazy about dealing with issues whether good or bad. My weight being one of them. In the fall, when I lost the weight that I did I was looking SO much better and felt good then I hurt my back and fell off - no longer having the motivation to start again - so it was easier to just stop, shop and eat (my usual).

Although I've let my twenties go by as a fat girl, my thirties won't be the same! I'm putting my foot down and getting the help that I've needed for years now. I will get help emotionally, mentally & physically this time.

I'm so happy thinking of the future knowing I'm making the right decision for me and my family. I can't wait to...oh so much to share :)

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Life before the pre-op diet!!!

OMG! I have been eating whatever the hell i want. Yea, believe it or not as fat as I am, I watch what I eat. Although I eat bad stuff I don't just eat anything all day long. UNTIL NOW!!! WTF am I doing? I've been like, oh I think I'll eat this, 2 hours later, I'll eat some of that. Yes, I need need the lap band. Anyway, I cannot wait until the pre-op diet! What if I lose a ton on that? I can't wait to be skinny and hot!!! Sexy mama!!! Owww!!!! LOL!

Monday, June 22, 2009

On my way skinny!!!

Well here's the short & sweet story...

I'm a 33 yr old wife and mother.

I met my husband in high school weighing around 145, graduated around 190 and within a year shot up to 235 - thanks to fast food!!! We got married when I was 21, weighing 265 - those pics hurt to look at. I yo yo'd for the past 15 years with a low of 212! What a low!

As a mother of 2 year old triplets I want to be the best mother and being healthy is a huge part of that. I'm doing this for me and them!!!

In April 2008, I was sick of the yo yo'ing. I heard of the band, did research and contacted the bariatric center a few people I knew went through for gastric bypass. By July, they submitted to insurance only to be turned down because they were not in network. What a fricken mistake on their part. Boy did that piss me off!!! I gave up on the band.

The last day of August 2008, I joined the gym and began to lose. 35 lbs in 6 weeks. I hurt my back about 8 weeks into it and slowed my workouts then they completely haulted. Bad habits returned and I slowly gained the weight all back.

In May 2009, the same lady from the bariatric clinic called me as she had a few times over the past year but this time to say that they were in network and wanted to know if I was still interested. She was SO nice to me through the whole process before so I respected her and decided to come in to talk to the doc again.

Long story short, I'm approved and scheduled for pre-op tesing July 1. My surgery is July 20. I can't believe it - I'm going to finally be skinny!!!

Follow my journey as they band me skinny!!!